Friday, November 24, 2006
I've not been blogging for long time... hehe...Life is stressful and it's up to you how to cheer yourselves.. I'm still having many question marks in my head... Don't know what to decide... But one thing is decided; life should move on regardless how weak i'm, life must keep going for the sake of my parents(especially) and people ard me... I've wanted to take leave so much but work is piling... Sometimes, i'm thinking how i can be in this industry where i've no idea about before getting into poly... All that happened in my life now is not my initial planning when i was in secondary sch... But that's the fact of life... You planned but facts are different...
Being happy is when people around you are happy... That's what i'm living on now... I can't find my own happiness and i don't know where it lies on... But as long as people around me are happy, i think that's my happiness...
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 7:17 PM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
It seems that my life is bold n empty... Since i'm back from India, i felt less enjoyment in my life... Sometimes, i asked myself if my decision going to India affected my future such as my relationship with the loved ones... I don't know but things are getting out of hands nowadays... I kept thinking about something i should not and because of the emptiness, i kept thinking about HIM... If i was to keep myself busy like before, i won't be thinking about him... But since my life is empty and quiet, he has been intruding my mind... He's nvr failed to intrude my mind but since i'm back from India, it's more often compared to before me going to India... But i've to let go of my past for the future... But i realise i should be strong, may be this is a challenge of life that i've to go thru... Running away may not solve the problem...
Apart from all this, i've been thinking of my oversea studies offer... I've got the course that i want but i've been thinking if IT is my industry.. HAIZ... my mind is confused and tired... But life is dead if i'm to stop thinking... Life is about going thru challenges but sometimes challenges make me to give up my life...
Hopefully, something that has no answer, will have an answer as soon as possible...
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 6:00 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Life teaches me something
About love
About relationship
About family
About everything
But experience is my teacher
Observation is my thoughts
Life is never perfect
Cos we’re never perfect
So do our life
Life makes people miserable
Life makes people happy
Life is enjoying
But depend on ourselves
Whether to make happiness ours
Life is joyful
When family is around
Loved ones surround you
But sorrow makes you grateful
To have what u own
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 2:26 AM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
What Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 9:05 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
After being back from Chennai, many things around me have changed... I think my family is not dependent on me anymore like they used to be... And now, i think i feel awkward being ard back with my family... Anyway, things really changed like relationship between siblings and cousins... But i have to take them with maturity... They are busy than they used to be... I have to face it...
I think if i am to pursue my studies in Australia, it's gonna be nothing to me and my family anymore... I feel they are used not having me around anymore... shopping, outings, etc... I think they have their companion... I just have to get used to be alone.. meaning to be independent... get used to go shopping, etc alone...
Looking for jobs can be a headache... don't know which suit me or not... Another thing will be the salary that they are giving me... hmm, should distance be another factor for me to consider??? But i think having too many choices also can be a headache and if to has a limited choice, also can be a headache... i should say, decision-making is not to my liking...
Anyway, i'm just grateful to be back by my family sides... It's just that things changed and i'm still kind of not used to it... Sometimes, i'm just wondering is the decision of me going to chennai really make me feel the changes that are happening around me... Anyway, things done... I just have to live with it...
Just have to get myself busy with work once i start working so that i'm not going to think about all these... And i think i shud also start saving money for australia in case last minute i would like to go with Hajjar... Afterall, being alone in the overseas aloe with friend is not bad also... Just that i'm a sentimental and emotional so being apart from my family is really bad for me... But anyway, one day i'll gonna have my own family too... So maybe this is the time for me to have the foundation... hehe
I think i'm just sensitive with my surrounding that i'm feeling all these... Anyway, that's life and i'm moving on with it as i could... My family shud know that wherever i am, i'm always thinking of them... I'm just bad in expressing with words and action... But my heart will always be with them cos they are the cause of me going on with my life... Without them, i'm nobody and nowhere in this world...
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 5:41 AM
Monday, March 06, 2006
Kehidupan bagai satu cubaan
Cubaan itu ku anggap satu nikmat
Nikmat pemberian Ilahi
Aku harus menghadapi
Walaupun sesukar mana pun
Aku tak akan mengalah
Kerna bila aku kalah
Syaitan sorak dengan kuat
Menandakan kejatuhan diriku sendiri
Selagi terdaya
Akan aku cuba menghadapi rintangan hidup
Sesusah manapun
Akan aku menanganinya
Sebagaimana hamba Allah melalui
Tidak akan aku tewas
Tidak akan aku menyerah kalah
Kerna aku adalah hamba Allah
KepadaNya aku kembali
KepadaNya aku dating
Seluruhnya, aku menyerah kepadaNya
Tapi bukan pada musuhNya…
Menyerah bermakna aku kalah...
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 12:46 AM
Airmata memang murah..
Tapi siapa sangka
Itu senjata wanita
Mengapa wanita mempunyai airmata
Lebih dari lelaki
Wanita adalah lemah
Tapi wanita juga tabah
Ttitsan air dari mata
Mengalir di pipi bersebab
Sebab kecewa
Sebab gembira
Sebab takut
Sebab sedih
Mengapa ia mengalir dengan deras & sendiri
Kadangkala airmata terlalu senang mengalir
Airmata tidak bernilai bila ia jatuh
Airmata bagai pili
Apabila dibuka salurannya
Ia mengalir
Tapi bagi lelaki
Airmata seperti mutiara yang mahal
Ilahi telah mentakdirkan begitu
Kita redha akan ketentuannya
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 12:37 AM
Sunday, February 26, 2006
We grow up together
We bath together
We sleep together
We walk together
We eat together
We share things together
We quarrel
As we’re older
More commitment we have
We are drifting apart
But we’re close in heart
Less time we have for each other
But when we’re together, time is most precious
Never know that we’re growing together
Even though age and time drifting us apart
Believe me you’re always in my heart
We share and laugh
We cry and console each other
We quarrel and forget
We talk and listen
How can I ever forget all that?
The memories that lay in my heart
The memories that always lay in my mind
Never doubt my sincerity
You are important in my life
Never know the relationship we have
Bond us even more than it is
The closeness is incredible
That it lays a mark in my heart
That will remain forever
PS: I’m feeling emotional ;p
But that’s what I feel
And wanting to tell the person
♥ a butterfly tells a story @ 8:02 PM
